So uh the name's Pandemic because I’m a pandemic of love ; ). Actually it’s because I'm Pansexual and polyam, and this is my blog for my aesthetic stuff. I make moodboards, and I care about everyone so if you need some support or advice feel free to message me.
listen i might be drunk but im right. art & literature & nature & music make life worth living. people who look like they were ripped out of a caravaggio painting make life worth living. go organize a bacchanal in the woods. take pics of your lover in your hotel room in venice. who cares if there’s a void in your soul. who cares if you can’t get attached to anyone. neither can michelangelo’s david.
i dont care if u never listen to me ever again just let me be ur internet dad for just one second: dont start cutting yourselves please ever
ok im gonna reblog this again bc i want more ppl to see it?? ive compiled a (by no means complete) list of the things u can expect if u start:
- u cant stop. its a legitimate addiction. there is no ‘seeing what its like’. its soso hard to stop it and believe me, because that was me. i thought i would sate my curiosity but all i did was make my life miserable
- everything can become a trigger. someone carved things in a table?? trigger. u get a scratch by accident?? trigger. see something sharp?? yup.
- the scars dont go away and if people see them (and no matter how hard you try, people will see them) they get this awful fucking look on their face like a mixture of disgust and horror and pity
- u have to sit through people making shitty fucking jokes and calling people like you (real, struggling people like you) edgy emos looking for attention and it makes you feel sick but you have to sit there silently
- in fact, any conversation about self harm becomes thoroughly uncomfortable because they’ll talk about it like no one in the room has ever gone through it (or, if they know, they’ll glance at you out the corner of their eye when they think you cant see)
- any emotion can give you the urges- not just negative. ur body associates the happy feeling with the pain so ur brain is like ‘????? u cant have one without the other??’
- it can have been years. years. you can have stopped and got better and you’ll still feel the urge to hurt yourself and it makes you feel like you haven’t improved at all and you’re still fourteen and hating yourself
- (maybe this is just me) but some part of you misses it?? you stopped and you know its horrific but its so difficult to get rid of your blades or whatever you use because you feel so weirdly attached to these things that are so awful and you dont even know why
god damn i just want yall to understand that you dont have to hurt yourself ever, okay?? just. don’t. trust me.
I will reblog this every single day.
Ok so today I was on the bus with another trans guy and we were talking about how hard it is to get testosterone. The waiting lists, the price, all the doctors you have to go to, that kind of stuff. Except, we were calling it ’T’, like you do when you’re both closeted and in public.
Then suddenly the elderly lady sitting behind us was like ‘young men, either I’m going crazy or you both have never heard of supermarkets, they have shelves full of tea there! Do you need directions to one?’
To which my buddy starts to explain, because why not. ‘Well you see, we’re both trans, and… ’
The lady didn’t wait for him to finish his sentence. ‘Oh no, I don’t mind that at all! Now do you want to know how to get to a place that sells tea? I’m actually heading there right now!’
We let her take us to the supermarket. We let her show us, excitedly, where the tea was. We both bought loads.
This is beautiful
•You are the universe.
•You are the universe expressing itself as a human being for a short time.
•You are the universe being aware of itself, seeing itself though your eyes.
•You are not the individual self / ego that you identify with. That’s just a role-playing game the Universe is playing.
•When the body dies, the ego dies and the illusion of an individual self dies too.
•But the Universe goes on, expressing itself in new and various ways.
•People die, and babies are born.
•You are the universe, you are life itself. You will not die, you will go on, expressing yourself and role-playing in various life after life.
Anonymous asked:
la-petitefille answered:
• whenever you catch yourself slipping into a complaint, stop and ask yourself if it is truly worth providing energy to. will saying this make things better? will it make *you* feel better? oftentimes, when i feel like i really want to complain, hindering that makes me feel so strong. and that strength makes me feel as though i’m really building my character, rather than tearing it down. 😌
• begin each day by telling yourself one good thing about you. this can be absolutely anything; from, “i feel good for allowing myself that extra 5 minutes of sleep; i really needed it!” // “i really do love the shade of my eyes!” // i finished ___ chore yesterday, and i’m proud for accomplishing that!” // “i think that on my best days, i can be a very understanding person,” etc! gradually begin to turn one thing into two; and then two things into three, until each day you are noticing more and more to love about yourself. ☺️
• be more open to trusting your instincts! if you feel as though you should say no to something, trust your gut. if you think you can push yourself just a little and say yes, than go for it! you know yourself best, and trusting what that person knows they can handle is — i think — really good for learning to respect yourself. 💛
• realize that not everything will go as planned, and try your best to embrace that. i have a tendency to freak out or panic when things go wrong, but so much more often than not, stuff usually turns out absolutely fine. the next time something doesn’t go as planned, take a deep breath + focus on what can be done to fix it + laugh! laughter truly is the best medicine! it helps loosen us up, and realize that things don’t always have to be taken so seriously. 😊
• and lastly, decide what it is that you feel is missing… and strive to obtain it. 💕 often, when i become overwhelmed, it helps me to create a list of everything that is bothering me. then, i write out some tactics for how to fix it. do i want to be calmer this week? do i hope to accomplish ___ within the next few months? should i finally do that thing i’ve been putting off, and see how relieved i feel from finishing it? set a realistic set of goals for yourself, and check these things off at your own pace. you deserve to feel proud, and to feel excited to build ~your~ future. it’s always okay to have bad days. but sometimes, whether or not a day is awful can be something we control! i know you have the power, blossom. 💓💕😊 give some to the world, and to yourself — and watch it come right back to you. 😌🙏🏻🕊
“Growing Radiance” emoji spell
“Even on days when the sun isn’t glowing her brightest, don’t be discouraged from trying to shine, yourself.”
🌼🌟💛🌤✨🕯✨🌤💛🌟🌼
To encourage the sharing of your brightest energies // The spreading of your own personal magic.
Likes charge // Reblogs cast.
If your gf/bf/bff needs reassurance on how you feel, just give it to them. We’re humans and go through shit. It’s nice to feel wanted.
